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This is my Confession…

Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. Matt 6:33

Seek meaning attempt to find, search, learn, get a understanding of God’s will for your life first before seeking worldly ways. Live righteously means live right based on how God want us to live, fearing only God and learning his will for our life. Trying to be the best person in Christ that you can be. The best person that God created you to be. God will give us everything we need. Not everything we want but what we need. So we will get what we need on his time not when we want it.

I have a confession to make. Lets confess our sins, and pray for each other. I’m starting a new sacrifice/fast for God and I would love for 3 other people to join me on this Journey.

My confession is I’m not perfect. I pray God forgive me for not following all his commandments, laws and rules for living here on earth. I have sinned many of times and God still hasn’t left nor forsaken me. God is working on all of us but are we listening.

I realized after reading the Book of Genesis that I have still been complaining in my life instead of giving it to God. Most of us know that complaining, mumble, grumble can create stress in your life. Well I didn’t complain about my health over the last year but I complained about my relationships. I wasn’t happy with a lot and I complained instead of seeking God first bc I didnt it unconsciously. Im first repenting my sins and asking God for forgiveness.

God spoke to my heart and said ask 3 people to go on a Non-Complaining Fast. For the next 30 days, you and 3 other people, don’t matter if they go to church or not but they must believe and at least have a mustard seed of faith. Each of you hold each other accountable and pay attention to your thoughts, words that come out your mouth all day, everyday. When you realize you are complaining, Pray to God and give him a praise for what you want from whatever you are complaining about.

God told me that we can have everything we need but if we continue complaining/gossiping like the Children of Isreal that was saved from Egypt/Slavery we will never make it to a land flowing with milk and honey. We will do a rice challenge over the next 30 days as well.

I have now made my confession and Officially started the 30 day Non-Complaining/Gossip Fast.

Who else is with me?


My Understanding of The Book Of Ezra. God 1st Challenge

The book of Ezra was a time of forgiveness and restoration for the people of Israel. Over the last few rulings, God exiled the Children of Israel because of their wrong doing. God forgave the children of Israel softened King Cyrus heart to free them. They was instructed to rebuild the temple of God. They was warned about the people in the land corrupt ways. For some reason the children of Israel is easily influenced. God instructed them not to intermarry with them.

Fast forward to today. Many of us has been led into the land of America (Modern Day Babylon). Gods laws and commandments are still the same and we still intermarry with corrupt people. (Ezra 9:12). 

God is so forgiving. So far, I learned that God do not like evil doing. He will call you out and make you pay for your wrong doing,  regardless if you learn a lesson or not. I have truly built a strong relationship with God and know wlhat he like and don’t like. I’m understanding his laws for the children of Israel as I read more Bible stories. It is so easy to build a close relationship with God. You have to be willing to take time out for God.

Chemotherapy will not Control Me

God, my angels on assignment, family, facebook friends and I are ready for whatever. I’m researching Chemotherapy before I start the process on December 14, 2017. I want to be aware of what I’m about to go through as an adult with cancer. Thank God I don’t remember the first time I went through Chemo & Radiation at 1 1/2 years old. 33 years later Im going through it again but God is my healer.

What is Chemotherapy?

Normally, your cells grow and die in a controlled way. Cancer cells keep growing without control. Chemotherapy is drug therapy for cancer. It works by killing the cancer cells, stopping them from spreading, or slowing their growth.

How is it Given?

Chemotherapy is most often given as an infusion into a vein (intravenously). The drugs can be given by inserting a tube with a needle into a vein in your arm or into a device in a vein in your chest. I go for my appt so they can insert my line the week of Dec. 4, 2017.

What do it do?

Chemotherapy targets cancer cells, it may also damage healthy cells and cause unpleasant side effects, such as nausea, vomiting, hair loss, fatigue and mouth sores. My care team will provide a variety of supportive care services to help me prevent or manage side effects throughout your chemotherapy treatment.

Here are some foods they recommend to soothe side effects during chemo.

If you have any natural remedies please feel free to share.

Foods they recommend me to eat depending on my side effects.

Im going to buy me alot of Beautiful Scarfs to cover my head.


Ginger Candy

Whole Grain



Orange juice

Raw onions and garlic


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My 10 Year Transition from the World to God

My sister asked me what was I doing ten years ago when I was 24 years old. HaHa! Well, I can honestly say I am not the same person I used to be. At 24 years old, I just moved to Memphis, TN, from Charleston, SC , had my apartment, own car and was single and mingling. I was drinking every weekend, getting WASTED like the white boys and being a Workaholic. I remember plenty of days working hard and then end up falling asleep in the club.


Catrina 24
Catrina, 27 Years Old, Charleston, SC


Wow! I was faithful at doing worldly things to attract what I wanted. Things like money, guys, success and material things. I barely acknowledged God. When I did get what I wanted, it took all my energy. I was giving, giving, giving but not reaping in God’s kingdom. I never understood why I would achieve my goals with so much struggle in the midst of it. I couldn’t see, hear, or even feel what I was doing wrong because I was so closed-minded to new things outside of what I saw around me. According to a study, the average person is only aware of 5% of their daily activity. That means 95% of what we do is unconsciously done.

I loved myself but not my whole self. I put so much effort and energy in my business and school to the point, it put wear and tear on my body. So much energy went into helping people in my last ten years to where I forgot about me.


Catrina, 33 year

I wanted others to win so bad to the point I overworked myself. I worked myself so much to where I’ve been diagnosed with a tumor in 2017. Click Here to Help Catrina fight her Illness.   It’s because I didn’t take time out for myself. I was disobedient to God’s Sabbath day. I have been working, working, working basically 7 days a week. It’s funny because right when I decided to read the entire Bible from Genesis to Revelation, to get closer to God, I was put in the valley of the shadow of death. I wanted to get to know God and learn his righteous ways. I wanted to be able to discern the flesh and the spirit. Thats when the enemy decided to test me this year, 2017. Oh, I was tested in every area of my life.


After 10 years of being single, I decided to settle down and commit to only one guy. I was never the type to play with men but I was operating in sin during my early 20’s. My most recent relationship help me learn exactly what I want in a man. I found that I enjoy doing wife duties, and catering to my man. At the same time, if I’m not treated like a Queen then there are problems. I learned fast that it’s not about being in a relationship but allowing God to connect you with the right person at the right time for the right reasons. I started to feel as if something was missing and I thought it was a man. I was tested in this last relationship to see if I would seek revenge. I trust in God and prefer to continue to do good so that good can follow me. You reap what you sow.

Now I’m not going to lie, I had my fun days, partying, working for myself, and getting involved in a committed relationship and overworking myself. Out of all the success I created, I wasn’t serving the right master though. I learned fast that you can’t serve two masters. The enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy.  The devil mimick God ways to deceive you into following him.

Over the last three years, I got closer to God than ever before. I learned the foundation of living life in prosperity, leaning not to my understanding and to have faith in all aspects of my life. I knew of God, but I didn’t have a close relationship with God. It was hard to discern what was for me and not for me because I didn’t know the difference between God’s voice and the devil. I used to give even when it hurt me and one thing I know is God doesn’t want us to suffer.

I have grown wiser, stronger and a passion for helping people become an entrepreneur. Since the age of 24 years old, I’ve grown to understand how to humble myself, how to take care of myself inside/out, how to create what I want in life and how to recognize the real from the fake. I am a new spirit of Christ. I will continue to build a close relationship with God. I will not settle for less. I will follow my first instinct and never regret anything in life.

Catrina WilliamsTen years later at the age of 34 years old, I would prefer to go to a nice comedy show, self-development events, travel the world, do different family activities, create last memories of a lifetime doing different things. I have learned how to love myself first before anyone else. I am a PROVERBS 31 woman, more precious than rubies. I have fallen in love with the color of my skin, my race, my ancestors and most importantly God! I can’t do the things I used to do because I know better.

Inspiration: Live your life, Follow your Heart, Learn new lessons

Psalm 23, Ephesian 10-20, Ephesian 1:17, Isiah 41:10,


Am I a Square or an Angel

Hallelujah! Thank God I realized I’m a special kind of human being. I look normal on the outside but feel like an Angel in Disguise. People in the world would call me a square. If they only knew God’s 10 Commandment stuck with me from a child.

Thou shall not steal, nor commit adultery was simple laws of God. Therefore, I never cheated in school nor skipped in any grades so why should I cheat in a relationship (Personal or Business)? I never stole anything a day in my life so why should I let others steal my joy.

Thou shall not lie was easy to understand so I choose to tell the truth. Lie is a lie. It’s a fulltime job that I don’t want. So why should I let other lie in my face when I know the truth.

Thou shall not covet was difficult to understand growing up but now I see how people in the world will go broke trying to keep up with the Joneses. With an organized budget, they could support their brother & sister but they rather spend their money on others that’s don’t support themThat’s why blacks in America spent 1.2 millions in all other race (Asian, Chinese, Caucasian, Mexican) business but not their own. I focus on impressing GOD, Not man.

God planned my life long before I became physical flesh. That’s why I am healing without all that chemo the doctors want to blast me with again. I have the love, power, and anointing of God. I can tell if someone is for me or against me, regardless what come out their mouth.  Those that cross my path will always be blessed because of my love to help others. However, Gods guidance will show me how much help I will give each person to avoid depleting my life energy.

Many will call me a Square and Im ok with that. I rather follow God’s Righteousness than the Devil Sins.

I am that, I am. 

Psalm 23

God 1st Challenge: My Understanding of 1st & 2nd Chronicles

The Book of Chronicles in the bible talks about all the family lineage way back to Adam. However, the lineage of David’s descendants as King is told in detail. Most of them did evil in the sight of the lord when they rose to power. It’s like the presidents and prime ministers in the 21st century. Many have done wrong in the sight of the lord. They promote wrong doing and the people follow wrong doing. God has been hurt for so long because as hia children we follow behind Godless men. 

A couple of Kings that did good was King Solomon and King Hezekiah. When they did good by the lord, they was blessed exceedingly. However, when kings rose up and did evil by the lord, the lord brought his wrath upon them. Many were defeated in battle, sickness and chaos came around when God’s people were disobedient. 

So as we fast forward to the 21st century, our presidents have done evil and now God is pouring his wrath on the world, especially America. Everything has already been done under the sun. We are living in generational curses, walking dead in the mind and don’t have a close relationship with God. People are dropping like flies, the land is in a famine, disease and sickness is widespread and wars are ongoing. Only followers of God will survive. God will protect his obiedient children. This was a great lesson about free will. If you choose to be obiedient, God will bless you with an overflow of his riches and glory. If you reject his laws, his wrath will come down you. 


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Others Could Have It Worse. Here’s Why…

I’ve been cut with surgical knives, blasted with high dosage of Chemo & Radiation, and fed with all kinds of pharmacueitical drugs from the age of 1 1/2 until 18 years old. The radiation at a young age caused me to have high frequency hearing loss. I experienced low self-esteem during my childhood because of the surgical cuts and burn scars that was left on me after I became a Cancer Survivor. I remember when I used to cover my scars because I thought others that didnt know my story would judge me. Well, some did. 
As much as I tried to act like a normal kid,  God always made it possible to help me stand out. My near death experience allowed me to create a divine spiritual connection with God. Doctors told me I would have a slower learning process but I graduated highschool with a 3.2 GPA and was on the Dean’s List in college 3 semesters out of 4. I acheived my Associate’s Degree in Business. Been a successful business owner for 10 years and I love business with a passion. 
Most importantly, I love helping people have a better life.

God told me I chose this life journey due to his mission for me here on earth. Many pastors have told me I will lead the masses. Well I’m claiming, I am leading souls out of poverty because of God’s wisdom & knowledge he blessed me with. 

Many will hate on me, not support me or even talk about me because deep down inside they are rejecting the love of the spirit to guide them into living a righteous life. 

My Beautiful Scars I used to be ashamed of is now my life saver and my inspiration to strive for better and Inspire those who broken. 

Today, be thankful you are alive. Become a better person than you were yesterday. Through Christ, all things are possible.

Put on the Whole Armor of God

The devil comes to kill, steal and destroy so be careful who you let in your life. Pay attention to see if it’s dark or light.
spiritsThere are two types of forces out there in the world. Negative spirits out to use everything it can against you and heavenly spirits that guide you on receiving the true blessings of God.
Don’t get caught up in the material things, worldly riches and fame because all of it will stay here in this world anyway. Way after you are gone. It’s ok to pass down generational wealth. It’s not ok to do things for the love of money.
Think about it, you can have a Perfect life today and lose it in all 24 hours later. Just because we don’t see negative spirits, don’t mean it won’t attack your job, your family, and/or your finances. It will even attack your body, mind, and spirit to lure you into sinning. Which in return separates you from the Most High!
Fight the good fight of Faith everyday. Put on the whole armor of God in order to stand firm against all strategies of the enemy!
Call out those negative spirits and command it to go, In the Name of Jesus! Comment Devil Flee from Thee!

The Story of David & Goliath: 1 Samuel

The story of David & Goliath stood out to me in the Book of 1 Samuel 17.
Based on my understanding, Goliath was a tall Philistine giant in the earth at the time Saul was King. He kept coming to Saul and the Israelites to fight one of them. He wanted a one on one fight to fight over the land. Goliath kept coming back but Saul and the Israelites were afraid. Earlier on Saul defeated the Philistines to help free the Israelites for the Lord. However, Goliath put fear in their hearts for some reason. It’s like modern day challenges and complications that come into our life. We may be fearful but it’s all about the beliefs that are created and vibrations.
david_and_goliath_by_erikbragalyan-d89x0isOne day David was there when Goliath returned to fight. David saw the disrespect for the lord from Goliath so he spoke out and asked Saul to go and fight him. David was a small, young boy who was faithful to God and Saul as a servant. Saul dressed David up in his armor wear but David refused it. He didn’t feel comfortable. David got his sling shot and 5 stones from the ground and went out to fight Goliath.
David was confident. He knew who he was and whose he was. He didn’t fear anything like being too small because he knew God was on his side. David was protected by the full armor of God when quoted from 1 Samuel 17:45 “I come against you in the name of Yeshua, the God of the Armies of Isreal.” David took his sling shot and aimed at Goliath’s forehead killing him instantly. He chopped his head off and took it to Saul.
Saul then started to get jealous because the people gave David more credit. Isreal and Judah loved David due to his brave heart and care to help others. This reminds me of the first rule of the 48 Laws of Power that says, “Never outshine the Master.” That is the flesh that gets in our way when emotions like envy, jealousy, etc arise. We must respect the process, blessings, and resources God has given us in life. It is a reason why each of us has our own path. We must fight the good fight of faith every day.
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Catrina L. Williams-Hoolaise (2017)