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God pushed my Chemo Back, not man because…

The doctors had me in the office all day and waiting the last 48 hours trying to get my Chemo approved with the insurance company. It wore me out. My mom and I didn’t understand why but then God showed me he had a greater plan. Never question God just pay attention to his signs and instructions. I’m human and was praying asking God to please save my life. Www.Gofundme.com/CatrinaIllness 


** God said he didn’t want me to go through this Chemo process (Life or Death event) on my own. So God pushed my Chemo date back to Friday, Dec 15th so my husband can be here to hold my hand, pray and fight the enemy off me together. I forgive bc God forgives. God said my healing process has now been cut in half bc my better half is here with me. I was sooooo surprised when my hubby walked in the door and I can’t stop smiling. 

Prayer Works and I thank you all for continuing to pray with me and be here with me through my health journey. 

Love is stronger when you can show your love instead of just saying you love. #ChemoStartsTmw #ImReallyReadyNow #INeedmyHusbandByMySide

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My Tears Of…

I’m crying now, not because I’m sad or have fear but because God has been so Good to me and he is miraculously healing me in a way that I could never imagine or think of.

For the last year, I been in so much pain and suffering and many didn’t believe me. I was basically on my own, me and God. God helped me control the pain by myself but plenty of times I was forced to go to the emergency room. I was so independent, trying to handle the pain until Sept 2017 the pain started to get out of control. On Nov 8, 2017 with all the excruciating pain I was in, could barely see when driving, the Lord called and led me to the home house in Memphis, TN.  He said go home so your angel, your mom Lillie can help you.  The lord gave me a choice a couple of times this past year to come home to him in heaven or stay here on earth. I’m praising God with tears now bc of all the strength he has given my little tiny body to handle for over a year.

I’m praising God for my healing now before my complete healing is done. It’s just something about that name Jesus when I call on him to intercede and pray for me. 

On the other hand, the devil has been my foot stool and has helped me learn how to stand firm and fight Gods battle with him. I can honestly say I have seen the devil act out right in my face. He has put bitterness in some family members where they feel some type of way, put betrayal in some hearts I did business with, brought confusion in my love life,  struck me with the post side effects of my first chemo and radiation and mixed more pain with the new cancer to try to make me give up on life. He took my physical capabilities to work and earn consistent income away and even limited my work at home ways to earn money.

Through all the pain, suffering, oppression, and walking thru the shadow of the valley of death, God showed me after this trail and tribulation I will have an even more beautiful life with beautiful children, loving, caring, faithful husband, abundance in Agape love, prosperous life and rich resources for the rest of my days. God’s will for my life is not done here on earth. I told God I would rather stay here on earth to help save more souls to come back to him then to see many crying at my funeral to early to soon. I asked God (Matt 21:22) to save my life. I’m still here today bc of my faith and works to trust God.

Through all the turmoil, I’m still here and you are too. Let someone know who is fighting cancer or a life or death illness that you love them and God is with them. Tell them to stay strong and that prayer works. Give them laughter and smiles. Then Lift your Hands and Praise God with me.  Hallelujah. 

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Scary but Funny Story…

OMG! So I have been selling stuff on my Offer Up for the last year, right. Someone hit me up to buy a TV Wall Mount yesterday. We planned to meet in a public place. The guy said he would be in a White Ford Taurus. So I told him what kind of vehicle I would be in. 

So at the light I noticed a white police car got behind us. I asked my mom was she speeding, she said no. So the light turned green and we started turning. The store was right on the corner, so we had to make the first right. Well we noticed the police car made the first right behind us as well. So now we are getting concerned. 

My mom parked on the side of the store and all of a sudden the police officer parked right behind us blocking us in. I’m wondering what did we do, why is he pulling us over with no lights. I get out the car and he get out too. 

All of us sudden he say, you are the one who selling the TV Wall Mount? 

Boyyyyyy He better not do that again. Lol Why didn’t he tell me he was a Police Officer. Lol

What a Interesting day.

This is my Confession…

‚ÄčSeek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. Matt 6:33

Seek meaning attempt to find, search, learn, get a understanding of God’s will for your life first before seeking worldly ways. Live righteously means live right based on how God want us to live, fearing only God and learning his will for our life. Trying to be the best person in Christ that you can be. The best person that God created you to be. God will give us everything we need. Not everything we want but what we need. So we will get what we need on his time not when we want it.

I have a confession to make. Lets confess our sins, and pray for each other. I’m starting a new sacrifice/fast for God and I would love for 3 other people to join me on this Journey.

My confession is I’m not perfect. I pray God forgive me for not following all his commandments, laws and rules for living here on earth. I have sinned many of times and God still hasn’t left nor forsaken me. God is working on all of us but are we listening.

I realized after reading the Book of Genesis that I have still been complaining in my life instead of giving it to God. Most of us know that complaining, mumble, grumble can create stress in your life. Well I didn’t complain about my health over the last year but I complained about my relationships. I wasn’t happy with a lot and I complained instead of seeking God first bc I didnt it unconsciously. Im first repenting my sins and asking God for forgiveness.

God spoke to my heart and said ask 3 people to go on a Non-Complaining Fast. For the next 30 days, you and 3 other people, don’t matter if they go to church or not but they must believe and at least have a mustard seed of faith. Each of you hold each other accountable and pay attention to your thoughts, words that come out your mouth all day, everyday. When you realize you are complaining, Pray to God and give him a praise for what you want from whatever you are complaining about.

God told me that we can have everything we need but if we continue complaining/gossiping like the Children of Isreal that was saved from Egypt/Slavery we will never make it to a land flowing with milk and honey. We will do a rice challenge over the next 30 days as well.

I have now made my confession and Officially started the 30 day Non-Complaining/Gossip Fast.

Who else is with me?

Catrina’s Cancer Journey

Dec 5th, 2017

Today I go to my oncologist to set up my Chemotherapy Plan for the Malignant Tumor. Oncology means the study and treatment of tumors.  I will get to ask questions and see how much dosage, how often and where they will put my line to inject the Chemotherapy.

As a 2nd Time Cancer Patient in my Adult Age it is definitely a new experience for me because the first time I was a baby. I don’t remember what I went through at all the first time. 

This time I get to use all the resources God has blessed me with to fight this illness. First, I get to test my own faith to trust God already healed me before I see it with my own eyes. I feel it in my body and feel the healing in my spirit.

Second, I have already started my new health plan eating more fruits, vegetables and adding ingriedients that will help naturally kill unhealthy cells, and sickness in my body. My mom has even started eating healthy with me to keep me inspired. 

I will share my update after I visit my oncologist today. 

Prayers work, Faith without works is dead. Your donations are greatly appreciated.

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My Understanding of The Book Of Ezra. God 1st Challenge

The book of Ezra was a time of forgiveness and restoration for the people of Israel. Over the last few rulings, God exiled the Children of Israel because of their wrong doing. God forgave the children of Israel softened King Cyrus heart to free them. They was instructed to rebuild the temple of God. They was warned about the people in the land corrupt ways. For some reason the children of Israel is easily influenced. God instructed them not to intermarry with them.

Fast forward to today. Many of us has been led into the land of America (Modern Day Babylon). Gods laws and commandments are still the same and we still intermarry with corrupt people. (Ezra 9:12). 

God is so forgiving. So far, I learned that God do not like evil doing. He will call you out and make you pay for your wrong doing,  regardless if you learn a lesson or not. I have truly built a strong relationship with God and know wlhat he like and don’t like. I’m understanding his laws for the children of Israel as I read more Bible stories. It is so easy to build a close relationship with God. You have to be willing to take time out for God.

Chemotherapy will not Control Me

God, my angels on assignment, family, facebook friends and I are ready for whatever. I’m researching Chemotherapy before I start the process on December 14, 2017. I want to be aware of what I’m about to go through as an adult with cancer. Thank God I don’t remember the first time I went through Chemo & Radiation at 1 1/2 years old. 33 years later Im going through it again but God is my healer.

What is Chemotherapy?

Normally, your cells grow and die in a controlled way. Cancer cells keep growing without control. Chemotherapy is drug therapy for cancer. It works by killing the cancer cells, stopping them from spreading, or slowing their growth.

How is it Given?

Chemotherapy is most often given as an infusion into a vein (intravenously). The drugs can be given by inserting a tube with a needle into a vein in your arm or into a device in a vein in your chest. I go for my appt so they can insert my line the week of Dec. 4, 2017.

What do it do?

Chemotherapy targets cancer cells, it may also damage healthy cells and cause unpleasant side effects, such as nausea, vomiting, hair loss, fatigue and mouth sores. My care team will provide a variety of supportive care services to help me prevent or manage side effects throughout your chemotherapy treatment.

Here are some foods they recommend to soothe side effects during chemo.

If you have any natural remedies please feel free to share.

Foods they recommend me to eat depending on my side effects.

Im going to buy me alot of Beautiful Scarfs to cover my head.

Carrots

Ginger Candy

Whole Grain

Rice

Eggs

Orange juice

Raw onions and garlic

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My 10 Year Transition from the World to God

My sister asked me what was I doing ten years ago when I was 24 years old. HaHa! Well, I can honestly say I am not the same person I used to be. At 24 years old, I just moved to Memphis, TN, from Charleston, SC , had my apartment, own car and was single and mingling. I was drinking every weekend, getting WASTED like the white boys and being a Workaholic. I remember plenty of days working hard and then end up falling asleep in the club.

 

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Catrina, 27 Years Old, Charleston, SC

 

Wow! I was faithful at doing worldly things to attract what I wanted. Things like money, guys, success and material things. I barely acknowledged God. When I did get what I wanted, it took all my energy. I was giving, giving, giving but not reaping in God’s kingdom. I never understood why I would achieve my goals with so much struggle in the midst of it. I couldn’t see, hear, or even feel what I was doing wrong because I was so closed-minded to new things outside of what I saw around me. According to a study, the average person is only aware of 5% of their daily activity. That means 95% of what we do is unconsciously done.

I loved myself but not my whole self. I put so much effort and energy in my business and school to the point, it put wear and tear on my body. So much energy went into helping people in my last ten years to where I forgot about me.

 

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Catrina, 33 year

I wanted others to win so bad to the point I overworked myself. I worked myself so much to where I’ve been diagnosed with a tumor in 2017. Click Here to Help Catrina fight her Illness.   It’s because I didn’t take time out for myself. I was disobedient to God’s Sabbath day. I have been working, working, working basically 7 days a week. It’s funny because right when I decided to read the entire Bible from Genesis to Revelation, to get closer to God, I was put in the valley of the shadow of death. I wanted to get to know God and learn his righteous ways. I wanted to be able to discern the flesh and the spirit. Thats when the enemy decided to test me this year, 2017. Oh, I was tested in every area of my life.

 

After 10 years of being single, I decided to settle down and commit to only one guy. I was never the type to play with men but I was operating in sin during my early 20’s. My most recent relationship help me learn exactly what I want in a man. I found that I enjoy doing wife duties, and catering to my man. At the same time, if I’m not treated like a Queen then there are problems. I learned fast that it’s not about being in a relationship but allowing God to connect you with the right person at the right time for the right reasons. I started to feel as if something was missing and I thought it was a man. I was tested in this last relationship to see if I would seek revenge. I trust in God and prefer to continue to do good so that good can follow me. You reap what you sow.

Now I’m not going to lie, I had my fun days, partying, working for myself, and getting involved in a committed relationship and overworking myself. Out of all the success I created, I wasn’t serving the right master though. I learned fast that you can’t serve two masters. The enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy.  The devil mimick God ways to deceive you into following him.

Over the last three years, I got closer to God than ever before. I learned the foundation of living life in prosperity, leaning not to my understanding and to have faith in all aspects of my life. I knew of God, but I didn’t have a close relationship with God. It was hard to discern what was for me and not for me because I didn’t know the difference between God’s voice and the devil. I used to give even when it hurt me and one thing I know is God doesn’t want us to suffer.

I have grown wiser, stronger and a passion for helping people become an entrepreneur. Since the age of 24 years old, I’ve grown to understand how to humble myself, how to take care of myself inside/out, how to create what I want in life and how to recognize the real from the fake. I am a new spirit of Christ. I will continue to build a close relationship with God. I will not settle for less. I will follow my first instinct and never regret anything in life.

Catrina WilliamsTen years later at the age of 34 years old, I would prefer to go to a nice comedy show, self-development events, travel the world, do different family activities, create last memories of a lifetime doing different things. I have learned how to love myself first before anyone else. I am a PROVERBS 31 woman, more precious than rubies. I have fallen in love with the color of my skin, my race, my ancestors and most importantly God! I can’t do the things I used to do because I know better.

Inspiration: Live your life, Follow your Heart, Learn new lessons

Psalm 23, Ephesian 10-20, Ephesian 1:17, Isiah 41:10,

 

Am I a Square or an Angel

Hallelujah! Thank God I realized I’m a special kind of human being. I look normal on the outside but feel like an Angel in Disguise. People in the world would call me a square. If they only knew God’s 10 Commandment stuck with me from a child.

Thou shall not steal, nor commit adultery was simple laws of God. Therefore, I never cheated in school nor skipped in any grades so why should I cheat in a relationship (Personal or Business)? I never stole anything a day in my life so why should I let others steal my joy.

Thou shall not lie was easy to understand so I choose to tell the truth. Lie is a lie. It’s a fulltime job that I don’t want. So why should I let other lie in my face when I know the truth.

Thou shall not covet was difficult to understand growing up but now I see how people in the world will go broke trying to keep up with the Joneses. With an organized budget, they could support their brother & sister but they rather spend their money on others that’s don’t support themThat’s why blacks in America spent 1.2 millions in all other race (Asian, Chinese, Caucasian, Mexican) business but not their own. I focus on impressing GOD, Not man.

God planned my life long before I became physical flesh. That’s why I am healing without all that chemo the doctors want to blast me with again. I have the love, power, and anointing of God. I can tell if someone is for me or against me, regardless what come out their mouth.  Those that cross my path will always be blessed because of my love to help others. However, Gods guidance will show me how much help I will give each person to avoid depleting my life energy.

Many will call me a Square and Im ok with that. I rather follow God’s Righteousness than the Devil Sins.

I am that, I am. 

Psalm 23

I was Admitted in the Hospital for Breath-taking, Excruciating Pain, Read Here…

On November 14, 2017, I was admitted in the hospital because they found a tumor. Baptist Memorial East in Memphis, TN finally found my health problems after visiting 4 Emergency Rooms, Multiple Doctors within the last year. I have been in so much pain to the point I had to let my cleaning business go at the spare of the moment. My pain level has been at a 15 and the only one I can think of that has kept me alive from the diehard pain was God.

I’m thankful because after three days in the hospital I received a positive doctor report Friday, November 17, 2017. Thank God that it is not an infectious disease in my body.

Dear Lord,

Right now, I repent my sins known and unknown. I know I am not perfect. Please forgive me and give me strength to follow your path of righteousness. According to Jesus of Nazareth, I have the authority to heal myself. You said, if I ask, have faith, I will receive (Matt 21:22). I know it’s not up to the doctors to heal me because you have angels on assignment healing me at an instant. You told me its all based on the attitude I have towards my health and my support system. You know my heart. 

Lord if I have offended any friends, family or business associates in my past or hurt someone spirit for whatever reason forgive me, for I did not do it intentionally. Lord give me the clarity to share my future messages in love, understanding and truth. 

Lord I sense some have a bitter heart towards me. Give them a renewed heart and renewed spirit and show them my love for them. If they have prayed for my downfall, if they have spoken curses and negativity over my life, Lord forgive them. According to 2 Timothy 4:18, yes and the lord will deliver me from every evil attack.

 I forgive them. Lord for those who I thought would be there for me has abandoned me because Im not a benefit to them anymore. May it not be counted against them. Thank you lord for those who have showed unconditional love, peace and concern during my ups and downtime in life. Protect me with the full armor of God so I can stand firm against every attack of the enemy. 

I accept responsibility for everything I’ve done in my life up til 33 years old. I break every generational curse, break every chain that has a stronghold on my life. Lord bless others heart to support me in the times of needs, support my online business so I can keep income flowing and bless me with whatever seed they can sow into my life as you heal and restore my health. 

Many have asked how can they help me or reach out if I need help. I don’t know how to ask for help because I have been so independent all my life. Therefore, the lord told me just put your link out and whoever decide to sow a healing seed in your life until you get better make sure you remember them so that you can share your overflow once you are restored. 

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In Jesus Name, I pray not only for myself but for other children of God. 

Amen, Hallelujah Amen