I was led to this church after God spoke to me in a small still voice in 2012. He said Go find a church. I didn’t understand why because I had a personal relationship with God. I went and attended 3 different churches before finding this one in Goose Creek, SC. I walked in on a Wednesday night for Bible study. The spirit of the Lord was among this place. The sister that approached me was sweet, said Bible study is Tuesday nights and invited me to Sunday services. This church has helped me understand I didn’t have full faith in all aspects of my life. I surrendered to the lord and learned how to open my heart to the Lord and the right people. I have been annoited by the pastor. The Lord led me to this churcb bc the pastor does a great job teaching lessons out the bible. However, I always wondered why pastors don’t teach by the books in the bible only by sporadic scriptures throughout the bible.
Now when I first started going, I was just introduced to Network Marketing and wanted to introduce Church Text Alertz, a free service for (non-profits/churches) to the pastor. I called his office a couple of times and left a message for a return call from him. Now I was fairly new and wasn’t a member yet. Up til this day, I never got a return call, text or email message. Two or three years later, he introduced text alertz for the church during a big church service one Sunday. I was so hurt. I forgave the pastor for he know not what he was doing.
He would speak on the member issues during service at times. He also spoke on church hurt when members come from other churches. I didn’t understand at the time but now I do. I never been a church going person most of my life so I didn’t come from a church. I did get baptised at my Grandfather home church in Stanton, TN but I never really became a faithful member. Well I gained church hurt from this church in SC multiple times to the point I stopped going completely.
I started to feel unimportant and unappreciated in the church. Another time I got hurt is when I attended one of the pastor free business seminars for business owners and future entreprenuers. Only to find out that if I wanted further coaching it would be a high cost to get help from him to help build his people up. I never continued with the business services bc I was already a successful business owner. It hurt my feelings bc I thought the church help its members and the community with free services or am I wrong? It also started bothering me to see a store and other avenues of earning money inside the church. I asked the Lord personally was this right.
Now I’m not going to break down how much money I tithed in this church, volunteer services I completed, and how I helped a member I didnt even know bc I sowed that into the kingdom of Gods field. I did start the process to become a member but the Lord wouldn’t let me finish the classes. Everyone who knows me know I finish what I start. I have invited many friends and family to church with me on different occassions. I did all of that from my heart.
Well after all I put into this church, which is not much in their eyes because their actions prove it. I became fb friends with the pastor, first lady and even some members of the church, and Not 1, I mean not a single one has sent me a prayer privately since going through my Cancer journey. They haven’t donated to my Gofundme account or acknowledged me at all. At least 3-5 members know who I am and have had conversations with me. My fb friends, family and even strangers has done more for me with words of encouragement, donations and support.
I have even tagged the pastor and other members on PURPOSE just to see what kind of Godly response I will get from them and it is just like when I reached out to the pastor about Church Alertz. Nothing, Nada, Zero. You talking about church hurt. Now I see what the pastor was talking about. However, I forgive the church, the pastor, the members and all. I am still their fb friends and will not delete them bc I will continue praying for all of them. While this pastor has a bible teaching church, not religious, I see their ways. The church has never been completely full during normal church services, the pastor living lavish, maybe some of the elders are too but I pray that they do not treat other members of the church the same way they have treated me. Especially if they are taking from them rather its volunteer, tithes or their acts of kindess.
That is why the Lord showed me a better way to get closer to him without being caught up in the church system and I have seen God way more than ever before. I have decieded to read the bible from Genesis to Revelation, study, research from online bible scholars and share my understanding. May God bless this church, it’s members and the pastor to the see their wrong doing they have caused on others. Sometimes we get so caught up in the church life to where we become blinded. I feel so much better for getting that off my chest.
Lord, I repent my sins and ask for forgiveness. I forgive them and ask that you bless their minds, hearts and spirit. We are confess our sins one to another and pray for one another.