My sister asked me what was I doing ten years ago when I was 24 years old. HaHa! Well, I can honestly say I am not the same person I used to be. At 24 years old, I just moved to Memphis, TN, from Charleston, SC , had my apartment, own car and was single and mingling. I was drinking every weekend, getting WASTED like the white boys and being a Workaholic. I remember plenty of days working hard and then end up falling asleep in the club.
Wow! I was faithful at doing worldly things to attract what I wanted. Things like money, guys, success and material things. I barely acknowledged God. When I did get what I wanted, it took all my energy. I was giving, giving, giving but not reaping in God’s kingdom. I never understood why I would achieve my goals with so much struggle in the midst of it. I couldn’t see, hear, or even feel what I was doing wrong because I was so closed-minded to new things outside of what I saw around me. According to a study, the average person is only aware of 5% of their daily activity. That means 95% of what we do is unconsciously done.
I loved myself but not my whole self. I put so much effort and energy in my business and school to the point, it put wear and tear on my body. So much energy went into helping people in my last ten years to where I forgot about me.
I wanted others to win so bad to the point I overworked myself. I worked myself so much to where I’ve been diagnosed with a tumor in 2017. Click Here to Help Catrina fight her Illness. It’s because I didn’t take time out for myself. I was disobedient to God’s Sabbath day. I have been working, working, working basically 7 days a week. It’s funny because right when I decided to read the entire Bible from Genesis to Revelation, to get closer to God, I was put in the valley of the shadow of death. I wanted to get to know God and learn his righteous ways. I wanted to be able to discern the flesh and the spirit. Thats when the enemy decided to test me this year, 2017. Oh, I was tested in every area of my life.
After 10 years of being single, I decided to settle down and commit to only one guy. I was never the type to play with men but I was operating in sin during my early 20’s. My most recent relationship help me learn exactly what I want in a man. I found that I enjoy doing wife duties, and catering to my man. At the same time, if I’m not treated like a Queen then there are problems. I learned fast that it’s not about being in a relationship but allowing God to connect you with the right person at the right time for the right reasons. I started to feel as if something was missing and I thought it was a man. I was tested in this last relationship to see if I would seek revenge. I trust in God and prefer to continue to do good so that good can follow me. You reap what you sow.
Now I’m not going to lie, I had my fun days, partying, working for myself, and getting involved in a committed relationship and overworking myself. Out of all the success I created, I wasn’t serving the right master though. I learned fast that you can’t serve two masters. The enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy. The devil mimick God ways to deceive you into following him.
Over the last three years, I got closer to God than ever before. I learned the foundation of living life in prosperity, leaning not to my understanding and to have faith in all aspects of my life. I knew of God, but I didn’t have a close relationship with God. It was hard to discern what was for me and not for me because I didn’t know the difference between God’s voice and the devil. I used to give even when it hurt me and one thing I know is God doesn’t want us to suffer.
I have grown wiser, stronger and a passion for helping people become an entrepreneur. Since the age of 24 years old, I’ve grown to understand how to humble myself, how to take care of myself inside/out, how to create what I want in life and how to recognize the real from the fake. I am a new spirit of Christ. I will continue to build a close relationship with God. I will not settle for less. I will follow my first instinct and never regret anything in life.
Ten years later at the age of 34 years old, I would prefer to go to a nice comedy show, self-development events, travel the world, do different family activities, create last memories of a lifetime doing different things. I have learned how to love myself first before anyone else. I am a PROVERBS 31 woman, more precious than rubies. I have fallen in love with the color of my skin, my race, my ancestors and most importantly God! I can’t do the things I used to do because I know better.
Inspiration: Live your life, Follow your Heart, Learn new lessons
Psalm 23, Ephesian 10-20, Ephesian 1:17, Isiah 41:10,