God is not ready for me because my mission is not complete here on earth. Yesterday I experienced one of the scariest health challenges since I was a baby. I broke out in a sweat, felt like I wanted to pass out any moment. I couldn’t lay down, sit down, nor stand up due to excruiating pain throughout the area I had chemo-radiation. I couldn’t talk to call for help or even walk to get help. It felt like something was taking my breathe away. I kept losing my breathe uncontrollably. At the same I was telling my mind that I can breathe. I was telling myself that I’m alright eventhough I had blurry vision. It felt like my spirit had left my body and I was watching my body fight for it’s life.
Thank God for my cousin being around to call EMS for me. I was finally able to slowly walk to my living room. It was so uncomfortable to sit but it also hurt to stand. The pain came again as I was sitting down and I started crying. My cousin was there with me watching but it really was nothing she could do. When EMS got to my home, I still couldn’t breathe on my own so they gave me oxygen. They started asking me questions but I could barely talk. As my breathing started toning down I started coming back around to talk. I told them I’m a Cancer Survivor, and that this issue been going on for the last eight months. The EMS was able to help me catch my breathe and they asked me, did I want them to carry me to the hospital?
At this time, I looked at them and said, “No”. Not because I was afraid to go to the doctors but because Im afraid of the bill. That’s why many Americans without Healthcare are unhealthy and lose their lives unnecessarily. If I was able to afford the expensive health insurance they offer, I would have been able to get the problem taken care of. I have been to the doctor five times for this same problem over the last 4 months and they are not doing the right testing to find the problem but sending me bills for $1000 + for a hour waiting and 10 minutes for a quick check up and prescription medicine that I despise.
They did more for me when they thought I had medical insurance but yesterday they just did a basic check. It was the worst I ever felt. I’m starting to feel the long-term side-effects of my cancer treatment from 1985, my lower abdomen and top right leg has been in major aches for some time now. I’m getting to the point where physical activities are limited for me without going through the aches and pain. This is where the medical bills starts to pile up because of the expensive visits.
Even though I have disability insurance, that doesn’t help me with my health. I’m very disappointed in American Government for taking our tax dollars, spending it unnecessarily and charging us rediculous prices for our health coverages.
Cherish your life because you never know when your time is up. I’m thankful for my cousin helping me and for God giving me a strong mind to not give up. I’m not shame to say I’m a survivor even when I’m being attacked medically. Someone didn’t wake up this morning. Pray that I’ll be able to get this ongoing health challenge cured, in the name of Jesus.